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Tw: restricted medical diet, missing hunger cues, death, general food and chronic illness stuff. (It's a good post tho)
Being able to eat cereal again has unlocked something actually feral in me. I'm so used to not being able to grab a quick little snack that won't have Medical Consequences later that I've pretty much gotten used to just... turning my hunger cues off and running at a deficit of calories.
It takes me literal hours to eat a bag of crisps because if I don't eke it out, my body will reject it. I can't have most fruits because my body will reject them. Raw vegetables will send me to the ER. All the foods I can eat require labor, either past or present, and when you're already running on a deficit of energy from chronic pain and constant hunger, well, that's easier said than done.
But being able to do something as simple as eating cornflakes, either with or without milk, and not have my body go into an anaphylactic meltdown is... This is game-changing.
When I say it has awoken something feral in me, I'm being literal. It's hunger. I'm feeling hunger, and for the first time in literal years, I'm able to sate it without having to burn up precious energy to do it.
And it's just so achingly normal that it feels like it shouldn't be a big deal. It feels ridiculous to feel tearful over a thing like cornflakes. But when I consider the fact that in 2019, I almost died from malnutrition because my nervous system was shutting down, and I couldn't eat anything because my MCAS was so advanced everything was sending me into anaphylaxis I, I just. Yeah.
Crying over cornflakes on a Monday night.
Just MCAS 'remission' things... ✌
#chronic health tag#MCAS#I'm so scared to say it's in remission#I am so so scared#but it's like#I'm drinking soda#I'm eating packaged foods#and I'm not going into spontaneous anaphylaxis?#like I'm not about to eat any of the foods that I *know* kill me but like...#I'm finally getting over 2000 calories a day for the first time in five years#is this... is this what... who...#*sweats nervously*#and I know recovery is non-linear with shit like this#but at the same time#I am grabbing onto this with both hands and RUNNING with it
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it's wild that for how much evangelical culture harps on humans being evil and horrible and depraved and wicked and sinful simply by nature of existing as a human, you're really not allowed to make mistakes, even (and possibly especially) as a child
and it's wild what they consider "a mistake" and "sin"
it's genuinely disturbing that i was told jesus never cried as a baby because "a baby's first sin is crying for attention". fellas is it sinful to have the instinct to want your caregivers to take care of you?
#ex christian#religious trauma#ex cult#cult tactics#and like I Get It if you Really Follow jesus he's supposed to override all that so expectations of perfection are Fine & Normal actually :)#but it's like#wild that there's no room for mistakes in the culture that's like “you ARE a mistake and left to your own devices Only Make Mistakes”#like y'all are the ones harping about human nature being entirely equivalent to sinful nature#and then expecting people to “go against their nature” 100% perfectly?#like. i get it but i also really really don't get it#mine
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Undertale/Deltarune FanComics
I put out a post for some UTDR comic recs, and I've decided to compile them all here, both so that I can easily access them as I make my way through, and also so that anyone else who is interested in it can also check it out :D I've provided brief descriptions next the ones I could uh quickly find descriptions for or knew personally, so if you notice one you know that's lacking a descriptions, tell me and I'll add it.
Also if you think this list would benefit from further categorization in some way, let me know! Right now it's a bit of a mess and overwhelming lol.
I'll also be updating this with new (or old lol) comics if anyone has more suggestions!
Edit: I’m making a collection blog, @utdrlibrary, that way one can go through the posts for which comic sounds interesting, instead of scrolling through a messy list lol. I’m still working getting the comics from this post up on the blog
(a 🌟 next to a comic means that I have personally read and recommend it ^-^ )
Undertale
Aftertale by @loverofpiggies - Complete.
🌟 Darker yet Darker and the sequel Second Son of Gaster by @sansybones - Sans' creation, how he came to be and find his abilites, and his relationship with Gaster and Papyrus. Complete.
🌟 Over the Void by @undertale-over-the-void - Post-Undertale. Frisk, Asriel, and Monster Kid end up travelling to a strange alternate universe where the war with humans seems to be ongoing. In Progress.
🌟 Dogs of Future Past by @lynxgriffin - Post-Undertale. Trying to find Gaster for Sans' sake, Frisk travels to the past with Flowey, and stuck in the body of one of the dogs that make up Endogeny. Complete.
Under/source by @slylock-syl - In Progress.
Ask Fallen Royalty by @askfallenroyalty - An Everyone Lives au. In Progress?
Ask Frisk and Company by @chamomilekitten and @comikatva - In Progress?
Ask Chara and Friends by Miamouse - In Progress.
The Thought by @tratserenoyreve - Sans uses the souls. Complete.
Mercy by @renrink - Frisk, Sans, and Chara during the San fight? Complete.
You Are Not Welcome by @rumay-chian - Based on the ending of a neutral run? In Progress.
Shifter Au by @audaciousanonj, @leshyleaf, and @wilwoo (I think? There's a lot of names on this blog) - Papyrus (the older brother in this au) gives up his form to a shapeshifter who he hopes will raise Sans better than he is. In Progress?
Inverted Fate by @megaderping - A roleswap au. In Progress.
Underline Au - okay so I remember reading some of this, but the blog (@/underlineau) pulls up strangely and my browser says there's something weird about it? If anyone knows why that is let me know.
Ghost Switch by @clevercatchphrase - Switches Narra-Chara with uh someone else? In Progress.
Fallen Flowers by @tarableart - In Progress.
The Old Monster of the Ruins by @knking - Asgore Dreemurr, an old monster that take cares of the Ruins and the humans living in it. Complete?
Name the Fallen by @namethefallen - Papyrus went to sleep in a race car bed and woke up in a flowerbed and is trying to find out what happened. In Progress?
Storyshift by @ut-storyshift - I was unsure exactly what to link for this, or if it is even currently a comic? I think it's a fic now. In Progress?
Altered Destiny by @altereddestinyau - Discontinued?
Entity Neo by @entityneo - In Progress?
🌟 Unexpected Guests by @undertalethingems - Papyrus summons the full form of his Blaster and can't get it to go away. Shenanigans ensue. In Progress.
They Say He Shattered by @emilyparagraph - Neutral Routes start colliding with each other. Discontinued.
The Bar of Sanses series by VanGold - A bar for various Au Sans to visit? In Progress?
Heart and SOUL by @auroragriffon - Sans' and Toriel's daughter ends up in the Underground of the past. In Progress.
Duotale by @ask-duotale-b2fc - An au where it's a different child who is the 7th child? In Progress.
Horrortale by @horrortalecomic - Post-Empress Undyne Neutral Route. A new child has fallen into the Underground, and things have gotten bad. In Progress?
🌟 Handplates by @zarla-s - Papyrus and Sans, creations of Gaster, from creation to and through canon (I'm still catching up lol). In Progress.
Deltarune
🌟 Paper Trail by @lynxgriffin - Canon-Divergent take on Deltarune after Chapter 1 of how the story could've gone. Complete.
The Chara Timeline by @lilybug-02 - Chara is Asriel's college roommate. They're both in Hometown visiting from college. In Progress.
Looking Glasses by @ferronickel - Susie, Ralsei, and Lancer, two years after Deltarune. In Progress.
🌟 Gaster's Great Escape by @moldyjunk - Gaster trying to get back to reality, in Deltarune. In Progress.
🌟 Twin Runes by @akanemnon - Frisk somehow ends up in Deltarune. Mostly rn funny shenanigans but seems to be heading towards story.
#browniefox speaks#deltarune#undertale#utdr#i also have my own comic#but it's like#two pages#so we're not putting that here until it's worthwhile lol
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Sooooo how long do I wait for the Mononoke Project to respond to my latest email before I conclude that they don't want their extra Bluray back? 😅
#mononoke#I feel like I'm becoming a pest at this point#but it's like#at least $55 USD worth of stuff
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Inuyasha | 犬夜叉 | Ch.43: The Demon Reborn ☆
#*slams hands on table* we as a society do NOT talk about his temp elven ears enough!! in this essay I will WHINE!!!!#my edit#human inuyasha#but it's like#inuyasha#manga#manga cap#manga edit#inuyasha manga#inuyasha edit#犬夜叉#shounen#animanga#rumiko takahashi#inuyasha chapter 43#inuyasha volume 5#spooktober#anisa reads inuyasha
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wait. you say lingerie like LAWN.. ger ray ?
... i thought you said it like linguini... like the pasta...
#IT'S NOT PRONOUNCED LIKE LINGUINI ???#BUT IT SOUNDS FANCIER ?????#this is so fucked up#see this is why i never correct people on pronounciation. even on my name#ppl get mad and tell me to stick up for myself bcs i have teachers who love me dearly and still call my name incorrectly#bcs ive never said anythjng#but it's like#i always loved reading above my level as a wee one so#it's like#this is earth shattering news#this is the type of shit that makes a man want to take a vow of silence
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*barfs up drawing*
Here :•] i drew the blorbo sleeping while i was actually supposed to be cleaning lmao
#this was originally just gonna be a sketch#then my finger slipped#billie bust up#bbu barnaby#i forgot his tail feathers fuck uh uh uh#you just can't see em here :•]#yea thats it#bbu#drawing#art#the lighting was a pain#but it's like#pretty so idc#i like to imagine this is after a party and so he gets to slep
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People washing out Childe's character so that he is the perfect boyfriend is very funny cus every time it's just Thoma. You take the murder out of Childe and you get Thoma. Give Childe his murder back 😤
#ok this is an oversimplification#but it's like#childe is a bit insane#he has his redeeming qualities but he's also a little bit of an arrogant asshole#and he's also a freak#i love him dearly#genshin impact#childe#thoma#like if you want to perfect boyfriend character thoma is right there#he's the best#but if you want something a bit more twisted#then you go for childe#let childe be a freak 👍#he's great at that#actually maybe asshole isnt the best way to describe childe#but he's definitely a little arrogant
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Sometimes I'm like "y'know, despite Haruka being my favorite Milgram character I really don't talk about him that much, maybe I should do that" And then I remember that a good part of my enjoyment of his character and my connection to him has a lot to do with my own experiences of being a neurodivergent teenager that I'm not really ready to talk about on the internet lmao
#{ ⚖️ after knowing all I wonder. can you really forgive them? 👁️}#milgram#milgram project#haruka sakurai#sakurai haruka#milgram haruka#but at the same time I'm like “maybe I should be more open about these experiences and how they relate to my enjoyment of Haruka”#And I do genuinely want to make an analysis on the themes of his character and how they relate to some of the themes in milgram cause#I do feel like it's genuinely important and it's something I am very passionate about#But it's like#How do I do this without trauma dumping on an entire fandom yknow
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Oh god I think I feel my deadpool obsession coming back...
#watch out tumblr#deadpool#it never left let me be clear#but it's like#becoming more hyperfixation again i think
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UGH I HATE MY GP SURGERY SO FUCKING MUCH 😡😡😡
#i have been on my period for 2 weeks#when it's like this i need medication to help stop it#but they won't give me a repeat prescription for it for unknown reasons#so i have to go through the surgery when i need it#and because making an appointment over the phone is such a hassle i always opt for the online form#i was told this morning by text i would get a call from them between 10am and 1pm#i got no phone call unsurprisingly because i know what these idiots are like at this point#i have then gotten another message saying they have requested to arrange an appointment to advise on appropriate options regarding my e-for#but it's like#I've had pcos since i was in my teens#i know why it's happening and i know how to help it#i just need the medication i use to stop my period so i can y'know actually get on with my day to day life#without the fear of my period being an asshole#like i haven't been able to do much or go out on the par couple of days out of fear that I'm gonna overflow#ugh i just want them to listen to me for once#(this is why i don't trust doctors I'm sorry but i can't with them they just don't understand)#ok rant over i just needed to get that out of my system#aimz talks
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Me looking at all the black cats at the nearby shelters
#Breaded Text#Like... I got a small space...it's a 2 bed 1 bath#And there is no way to know if Kitters would EVER accept another adult cat#Because she sure as shit didn't like my brother's Scottish fold#Granted we didn't do a great job having them get used to each other#I could do it right this time#But... it might still not take#and I would be so ashamed#To have to bring one back#But it's like#'Oh luna was left behind when her family moved but she's the sweetest girl in the world'
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Hey being aroace is already so hard to describe and explain
#me saying that i want this mystical partner that will pretty much just be my friend but its kinda official but im not even that eager to#get that#especially when im in an environment where i have many friends now who wont just up and leave and eho actually value my wellbeing#i don't need a qpr or a relationship or whatever rn at all#sorry this is so hard to explain i feel like i made a mess of this person's head now#because i have this image of a relationship id like to be in and intold them about it#but it's like#not something i WANT right noe#now*#its not something i need ot even strive for its just something i think would be nice to have in the vague fantasy of a future i like to#imagine for myself#and now i get told thatnhey this other friend of mine who i love very much has a similar view of a relationship so we should get together#as if that would be any different#they are not even aroace byw#idk man#this is a mess#ughsnjdjs#the experience of being aroace in a society that doesn't get it at all is pretty much impossible to define i think. honestly
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So basically this entire section of the gameblog can be read as: We're not getting enough players to pay for Star Rider and we REALLY REALLY need their money so we're going to completely ignore that the problem is Probably that our story is thin as shit because we've guttered everything that can be called progress and build-up because we've completely screwed over unlock requirements for this exact reason and now it's biting us in the ass but we're not gonna assume That's why so instead we're MAKING IT WOOOOORSE
#Not to say that a tutorial questchain Focused on that is bad#But it's like#You created this problem#This is your own fault
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Omg their height difference <3
#had to share this here too because i keep laughing#maybe it's not actually that funny to anyone but me#but it's like#so exact#literally precisely 4cm#do you think because of takuma's fluffy hair and goggles that no one even notices he's shorter#digimon survive#takuma momozuka#kaito shinonome#hi guys I'm still alive
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